So last night I decide not to take any pills - no pain killers and no sleeping pills. So of course I don't sleep much - wake every hour on the hour. BUT, no pain! The doctor points out that the effect of the pills may still be in my system and adds that now is not the time to play with the pills as it is too early. I am not totally convinced and will decide what to do later today.
The day is slow and hot. At OT, she now wants me to use my right hand as much as I can. As the right hand is the dominent hand, we need to keep it that way. So the idea now is to use the hand for everyday things as I used to. I automatically now use the left hand. Writing is the hardest part. It looks like the writing of a 5 year old. It depresses me somewhat.
My roommate has now got permission to put pressure on her leg and walk with a walker. I am very happy for her, but she is full of fear. This weekend is the first time she is going home - in 2 months. I hope when she comes back, she will now pee straight!! Seriously, I thought it was the 2 guys we share a bathroom with that were peeing on the seat...Turns out to be my roomie!! No jokes!
On a more serious note, I would be kidding myself if I said that I had never thought about life if the nerve never gets back to what it was, and I am left with a half functioning hand.....So many questions....Will I ever be able to lift up my kids again? will I ever be able to throw a ball again, write a check again, tie my laces again......etc.etc.etc.....
I decide to take the full dose of pills - sleeping and pain killers.
I have a good night - only wake twice. I feel so much better after I sleep well. At OT this morning, we head to the kitchen. They have a sample apartment set out with how it should look to help recovery and dealing with everyday life. My task is to cut up veggies for a salad, using my right hand. I manage very well. Both in how I do it and the time it takes. Bina is very surprised and so am I. she gives my shirts with buttons to close and open, zips to zip and press studs to press. I manage it all with ease. Very good morning indeed.
Spend the rest of the morning dealing with trying to get form 17 from maccabi for the xrays and visit next week to the hospital - a wonderful taste of real life!
Today 2 people are leaving. Mira will be an out patient, and Orna who has delayed her release twice before, will now have to deal with it. My girls will miss Mira, as she gives them cookies and juice every time they come.
I am going out on Saturday to Debbie & JK. Will be good to get out of here and be with family and friends in a normal environment.
Lunch is calling......
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