So today 4 weeks ago is when the ladder & I decided to do our dance. That means that the leg should be coming along and 6 weeks will be up soon and then hopefully I can start to walk again. I am hoping for good things Thursday when they xray the leg.
So since my experement a few nights ago with the pills, I decided to stick with what they are giving me, cause I am sleeping like a baby. Not like my babies though, cause they are non-sleepers. Although Mark tells me that they are sleeping through the night most nights now. Which leaves me believing that Mark was right when he would tell me to go sleep at my sisters for a weekend and he would have the girls sleeping like a charm. Have I been the problem all along? Just maybe............
Anyway, this weekend i tell them not to wake me in the morning and I will deal with the shower on my own. I have plenty of time on the weekends, so no need to rush. I manage to wrap the leg and the arm in plastic, manage to get the shower wheelchair & will now shower when it is good for me and not when the staff want me to. What a wonderful feeling - more independence!
I have been making an effort to use my right hand as much as I can in order to remind the brain that the right hand is the dominent hand and not the left. The hand is feeling much better. I mean not in the sense that the nerve is better, and it now functions as it should, but when it is active, i think the swelling goes down a bit and the blood flow is better. I am even using it a bit now when I type.
The skin on my hand and my foot is odd. It feels like the hand of someone else really. No matter how many times a day I put cream on, the skin feels odd and is always dry, especially on the pointer finger where I had the stitchers.
It is very quiet this weekend. Most wheelers have gone home for the weekend. I like the quiet. I have always been one that likes my own company and can be very happy to spend hours with just me and my thoughts. Lucky for me that I am like that being in this place.
August 22nd - So another week has begun. Yesterday was great. Great to get out and about and see the world again. I manage the ride in the car well and spend some wonderful time with great friends and family! It is very hard to come back to rehab. Kylee is hysterical in the car when it is time for goodbyes. It is just awful!! I feel like a bad mother, not being able to comfort her and provide her with what she needs. The most unthinkable happens. Eden, the 4 year old big sister, like she was reading my mind, takes over the role of mother. She tries to comfort her and tells her not to cry and Ima can't come home now and that they will come and visit me again soon. She even asks Kylee if she wants to see Nini (Janine), who Kylee is mad about. My pain over Kylee turns to pure 110% love and admiration for Eden! What beautiful angels they are.
Today Shir spends the day with me. We spend a nice day together in between therapy. Today I am feeling quite good indeed. Very positive and strong in general.
Mark is very stressed. Not sure what I can do to help him...
I am quite tired tonight. I think I will have an early night.
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