So the real pain has now begun. Since the cast has been off the arm, 5 days now, all the focus is now on getting the arm and hand to function as it should. What does this mean? Lots and lots of stretching, pulling, twisting, bending and PAIN. Today, Marina at physio nearly killed me. I almost saw stars if the truth be told. I have never wished for time to speed up as I did today.
My wish for the day was to fast forward to the end of September. What would we miss out on anyway: school strikes, all the holidays that involve overeating and no eating, the completion of our renovation and moving (again), and most importantly, lots of pain! But, in case my wish is not granted, I willl continue to breath deep and picture myself throwing that ball with ease.....
Anyway, this week 4 of my fellow wheelers are going home. 4 lovely ladies. All with different problems and different family situations. 2 will be walking out on 2 legs a piece and the other 2 continue their road in their fight against cancer. I must admit that the people that have arrived lately are not my type, and that drives me to get home sooner than later. There is a guy here who lost 40kgs and had an op on his stomach and colon so he won't put the weight on again. To say that I dislike this guy would be an understatement! As luck would have it, he is in the room across from me and does not stop talking. The type that has to be the center of attention, has an opinion about everything and everyone. In short a real pain in the ass -fat or thin!!
My physio tells me that she heard that I have 2 lovely girls that look like little angels!! She tells me that Mariana spoke about them for quite some time today during their session. Mariana is a Russian lady that sticks to herself. I believe she is semi-paralized from the waist down and also does not have full usage of her hands. She is in an elecric wheelchair and has been here for nearly 2 years. 2 years!! She was one of the Russian tourists on the bus going from the airport in the south, to Eilat. The bus was in an accident. I remember the story well. Apparently she does not want to go home to Russia and is 'happy' here. One can only wonder how things were for her in Russia if she prefers to live in a rehab center. Anyway, she tells the physio that she feels good when she sees my girls. It is like looking at 2 angels she says. The moral of the story is, never under-estimate your presence. We are each in our own way powerfull beings making a difference in someones life.
I miss Mark so much. All of our visits are focused around the kids. I miss my partner, my love, my star....I just miss him. We both know that it is only a matter of time until we have 'us' back again, but it is so hard at times....It is funny that at the start of all this, I was so worried about the girls. It turns out that I did not need to worry at all. The girls are doing great with their Aba. We have switched roles.My word is not worth so much any more. They turn to their aba for the final word, or for approval. I am quite enjoying it.
Tomorrow is the start of gan for both girls (and Mark). Eden is full time from day 1 and Kylee is in stages. I am sure they will both do well.
Sunday the cast comes off the leg (I hope). Eden asked me if I would be home for Hannuka. I promised her that I would be home to build a succah! Now I gotta check the calender to see when Succot is!
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