Finally the time has come. The time to close a chapter in my life and open a new one. Time to say goodbye to my fellow wheelers, the amazing therapists and medical staff. Time to say goodbye to a very odd lifestyle that I must admit, I have gotten used to.
So last night I bought ice-cream for my leaving 'party'. It is kind of a strange 'party'. Everyone wishes me health and I wish for them to all walk soon and they too will be on their way. On their way to the real world. Wafa ( my arab roommate), is crying. We get someone to translate and she tells us that she is sad for herself that I am going. That I won't be here to hold her when they enject her with blood thiner every night. That I won't be here to remind her to smile when she cries at night. Again I am reminded that we should never under estemate our presence in life.
I must admit that I have a strange feeling inside. One of joy to be going home to the family, but also one of trepedation. What kind of new routine will I have to get used to? How will the new therapists be through the medical fund? Will I be able to manage with work etc? I take a deep breath.....One day at a time...
I know from going home on weekends, that my life has slowed down a great lot. I am not able to just jump back on that treadmill and start running. But as someone very kind told me, I must be kind to myself. This is so true. I will need to find that balance that also allows me to focus on myself. My walking is much better. My arm has kept me a bit frustrated lately. Both the hand and the elbow. The range of motion is not great. During treatment it is quite good, but then jumps back to 90 degrees. The nerve issue is a matter of time - even if it takes a year, I will remain positive that I will have full use of my hand eventually.
The time in rehab has been an eye opener. I have met so many different people from all walks of life, all with different medical / physical issues. It has also shown me how many people, both family and friends care so much. People have gone out of their way to help me and Mark and girls. Whether it was from near or far. My sister Janine and family have been amazing!! We would not have managed without her. My mom and sister in South Africa with their constant calls and care. So many wonderfull friends. The girls from work, with their love and support, especially Shirley, who went out of her way to help not only me, but Mark and the girls. The list can go on and on. I have had an opportunity to see and feel the goodness in this world. It has changed me for life. If we all took the time to show and share more love, we would all be a much happier bunch of people. Don't wait for some accident or tragedy to come your way, show that you care today!
These are the final words from rehab..... See you on the other side!!
